2day im very very no mood... i wanna 2 cry, bt i dun wan~ i feel myself bcome very very hateness liao... i feel tat many ppl start hate me, include J (my sister). y they like tat? im rly bcome very hateness? wat am i doing wrong? maybe tis few days i alwayz find u, make u feel annoying... bt wat cn i do? im rly feel sry wf u... when i say sry 2 u, u juz only say nvm, no need say sry wf no reason... bt..., y u still treat me like tat? do u feel tat im still luv u? of course, bt we r brother n sister liao, i wont wan pak to wf u de... i juz feel tat, if u rly treat me nicely, i will happy; bt if u still gt many secret tat dun let me knw, like hate me something or wat, i will sad de... bt i feel myself stupid... y i cn wanna cry coz of u? nt juz u only! ur frenz also! ur whole class ppl... y all of u treat me like tat? i gt many things wan 2 say out... who knw my feeling? J, u muz knw my feeling de, bt y u nvr care bout me? y u dun ask me, "y u unhappy 2day?"? or u rly wan make me feel so sad or wat? i dun tink u r so bad... or ur frenz ask u treat me like tat? ur frenz rly very hate me so much meh? im rly the ppl who very hateness meh? who knw me the writing blog? if u knw, cn u knw wat my feeling? u dun knw!!! J, if u rly hate me, u juz say out lah~ y juz nw at canteen, u anggap me like stranger? do u knw my mood very very bad 2day? i dun wan scold any ppl, bt i cant control myself... im very bcome very very hateness after tat things? i dun hv doing wrong! i dun wan cry... nw im got ict class, i dun wan teacher c me unhappy, dun wan my frenz knw me very sad...~ my best frenz tell me dun alwayz find u, bt when i dun find u, u also wont find me by urself... u nvr anggap me is ur frenz, ur brother~ if 1 day i die, then u muz happy or wat? im rly very hateness meh? yes or nt? who cn tell me? if u hate me, juz tell me lah~ dun pura-pura treat me so gud! i oledy lost my form 3 best frenz liao, i dun wan lose my form 1 best frenz again... nw i rly no mood, i hope u cn tell me wat wrongs wf u n me... i dun wan my feeling will ganggu my exam coming soon... plz... Jesus... help help me bah... Allah... help help me bah... my frenz... help help me bah... maybe nw im bcome useless liao... im bcome helpless liao... i dun hv any frenz liao... all of them start hating me liao... allof them feel me silly liao... CCM hate me so much... J also muz start hate me liao... maybe the whole skul students dou hate me liao... im nt the gud ppl nw oledy... b tat i still ok coz no luv, no need fan... nw i start wan fan frenship... whos knw my feeling? i dun wan cry anymore, it useless... bt i will bcome easily angry~ juz like 2day... sry, im sry... if all of u feel me my exist is very hateness n annoying, i will leave tis world... maybe i leave tis world, all of u will bcome peace... juz tell me... if u wan say my bad things, u say front of me, dun at my bhind... im nvm de, i juz wan knw the facts~ i juz wan knw the facts... plz... J, dun treat me like tat, i will so so sad de, tq......
write on Thursday, 1 Oct
after recess at skul